life's a tornado. i dont know what the heck is going on half of the time, with people and meetings and classes whizzing past me in a flurry. with thoughts coming and going without a chance for me to think. nothing makes sense. the winds pull me in all directions. i get dizzy. i feel nauseous. it's chaos. it's madness.

and then...there are these moments. these fleeting moments of indescribable ______. maybe this is what c.s. lewis calls joy. it fills me beyond my capacity, so that i wanna burst. these moments....it's like i get a glance at the eye of the tornado. and it's freaking beautiful. just a clear tunnel amidst the chaos swirling around it...i can see the blue sky above. there's calm. and peace. God is unbelievable.


i live for these moments.