this place is unhealthy for me. i return to the same grind that is so attractive to me. i return to a place that offers me a new perspective on Yale, one that makes the place so unattractive. in fact, what in the bloody hell am i doing at a place like that. what have i been DOIN with my freshman year?! i been eating veggies for the soul...shovin down celery sticks and carrot juice when everyone else been chompin on carnitas, ykno. soul food...what's it gonna be.

i am torn, i am torn, i am torn. foresight is something i was never good at.