at times, i think i am sinking deeper into despair. i feel as though my life is collapsing and i can do nothing but be a spectator of my own demise. and then i take a step back and look at the bigger scene. and i realize that i have it shmeazy easy and i gotta stop whining. and start living.



and then.
i'm stuck.

my ambitious juices have long run dry, my drive is dead. perseverence and consistency have become lofty goals that i know i will never reach. all i can be is just be.

my brain needs new batteries.