in this search for evidence, for the green blinking light, signaling me to go forward in my life, for any indication that these years were not wasted in a futile cause...in this search, am i missing the point? i look to the sky, to other people, to the bible...but maybe this needs to be internalized. but i know that what lies inside this brain is a web of thoughts that i cant even imagine tackling. maybe that is my problem. fear is too compelling to overcome.


"Fear imprisons, faith liberates; fear paralyzes, faith empowers; fear disheartens, faith encourages; fear sickens, faith heals..."
— Harry Emerson Fosdick