i realized today that i bitch A LOT. i mean, usually i'm a pretty optimistic person. but when i am pessimistic, i am just a downer all the time. so i am going to try really hard to suck it up and just accept the fact that i'm here for atleast one year. i say one year b/c i am thinking of transferring. should i? i honestly dont think i will be abel to find such a strong christian body at berkeley or stanford. also, another thing that appeals to me here is that they know their shit, which is gooood times. so i think i should give it a try. i dont know.


today i got no work done. but i did a lot of thinking. i think i am a little too stupid for my own good.