:: first off, two great movies ::
finding nemo and spellbound. i've become a fan of indie's. pictures are up from coldplay, senior trip and grad stuff

:: coldplay, senior trip and grad stuff ::
chris martin is hot when he's performing. that was the awesomeist concert ever. and even though we were in the way ass back, i still loved it. AND...they ended with amsterdam, my favorite coldplay song. good times.
jenny cha is hot when she's injured. haha, jk. wow, but what a trooper. she hurt herself in a billion places, and she still stuck it out. i had so much fun kayaking (eskimo rolL!) and hanging with friends and having awesome talks with people. and jordan the counselor with his hot ass body can save my life any day. i hope he becmoes a fireman in the la canada area. 8)
graduation was bittersweet in many ways. too many to blog about, but it's come and gone. i dont know what to do about that.


:: and now ::
and now that i'm done, i get to look back and reflect. i think this whole reflection process is overrated, though. how am i supposed to get closure when i feel like a failure, looking back. and before any of y'all get all worked up, there are parts of me that need to be understood before evaluating my past few years. and seriously, WHO is evaluating mE? see, this is where i think my paranoia really gets to shine through. i dont even have anyone to prove myself to. and then i get all worked up and pissed off at people who are nice. anyway, it's not about that. it's about the goals i set early this year, and my inability to complete them. i set out to be consistent and focused, and i ended up just farting away the days. what a wuss, ey?

:: out of place ::
anyone else feel a bit out of place, now that high school is over? i mean, jesus, when did i become old. it's as if all these years i've been climbing uphill to get to the top, and all of a sudden, i feel like i'm descending.