:: you know that feeling when...::
you've been holding your crap in for a really long time, and you're waiting so bad to go to the bathroom and relieve yourself, but you're in a meeting or a class or something and you're literally counting the ticks on the clock for a break to come, and right when it comes you sprint to the bathroom and you poop allll of that backed up traffic of poop and it feels soooooo good? yeah, that's the feeling. ::smile::

:: i'm done ::
well unofficially, but still. today was my independent study concert, and even though a lot of people left by the time i was up, my friends stayed and so it was still good times. and even though i screwed up on 3 out of 5 pieces, it was still good times because i dont know...it was the first time i was playing for something that wasnt formal. that wasnt serious and all dressed up and "ohmy god i cannot mess up because teacher so and so and mr. blah blah of the X music institute is watching." it was in front of people who were out of the whole classical music loop, who didnt give a fuck if i messed up (which i did, many a times) and it was just fun. and i played in jeans, so i was comfortable :). so yeah, it was really fun. esp. because i got to finally play for my friends, which i really havent been able to do for the past 13 years i've been playing that thing. why is it that everyone in the classical music world assumes that those who take their music seriously must seclude themselves from the social aspect of high school? that's stupid as hell, even though my earlier life reflected that attitude. i'm so glad i dropped it though. performing in front of friends and family, no matter how shitty i play, is so much funner (n.a.w. [not a word]) than playing well in front of scary spooky (scientologist) people. and it was so cool that church homies came too! i was so surprised, i didnt think they were gonna actually come! and even my bs teacher came. ultra cool beans. haha :) and considering the ultramegasupersized cram session that took place to put this thing on, i'm pretty happy with the way it turned out. esp. GET IT. i cant believe i actually named a piece after one of maya's words. hahahhahahahhhhh.....good times, good times.

:: stop digressing! ::
ok, so going back to the previous heading, i'm done. no more ish to do!!!! well...semi "no more ish to do!!!!" i still have a bible paper to write, but that is easy shmeasy, and since all the hard stuff is over, i can just play all day long and write it wed. night or something. that's three days of freedom! :) oh helllllll yeah

:: matrix reloaded ::
i loved it. some people didnt htink it was that cool, but i liked it a lot, despite all that cheesy stuff and computer-game graphics. the love between trinity and neo is so romantic!!! but it's kinda weird in my eyes b/c trinity looks so much like sev's mom. hahaha :) that's a compliment!

:: my goal ::
to finish the new testament by the end of school has been thwarted by laziness and procrastination. but it's ok, never fear. i, too, have the power of the ONE and can overcome the control of these two evils. i am determined to accomplish my goal. peoples: keep me accountable.