i was talking to a freshman at prep about school life and homework and stuff like that, and then i asked her what the freshmen thought of the seniors. anyway, so she was telling me all the usual stuff, like how the girls think some of the senior guys are hot (which is what we did when we were freshmen. remember jp blecksmith??!! well I DO! aiyaiyai ) but THEN she was telling me about how some people were afraid of me. i was so surprised. AM I A SCARY PERSON?! HELL NO I AM NOT. it made me really sad. and then! when i took a nap a day or two later, i had a dream that had to do with the movie 'shrek' (the dream itself is really fuzzy now...all i remember is that i was going through the waiting line to get into the castle (and remember, this is where shrek just pummels through the lines in the movie? ok well if you dont, then nevermind) and the lines turned into this huge maze. very bizarre...anyway) so later wheni was thinking about what she said, i made the very very disturbing connection between my apparent scariness and my dream. does everyone view me as an OGRE?!!!! oh no! :(

some awesome words

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved.
- Helen Keller