i learned that i dont care enough about the small things and i care too damn much about the big things that only change with time. i learned that i'm probably not going to achieve my dreams. i learned that i think too much and that i need to cut back on the buddha. i learned that my second wish would be to sing. i learned to hate genesis and exodus and the god of the old testament. an hour later, i learned to love the whole damn bible. and god. i realized that i am getting dumber. i talked to people who had to cope with bad uc decisions. i also realized that sometimes you have to surf on the ebbs and flows of life. i realized why friends were so neat. i was surprised more than once tonight. i became depressed, happy, hopeful, frustrated, and amused all in a few hours. then it started to hit me that i'm fucked for school this week. right afterwards, i discovered that i dont care anymore. all that matters is that i am a wiser iris than i was several hours ago.


i love chatting with interesting people till late at night.