dream

why is the world always out to tranquilize you when you try to escape The Bubble? is that why i always feel so sedated..? i had a dream i had several times before when i took a nap an hour ago. it was where i had to climb a mile high of stairs to reach the top of the tower for prayer for the ba'lai people. i went up and came back down, and i was trying to drive away, but all these people were surrounding me in my car and looking at me with freakishly scary eyes. god, i thought i was going to die. i woke up and i felt so sick inside. i felt like Eli at the last line of that story, "then a needle slid under his skin. the drug calmed his soul, but did not touch it down where the blackness had reached." but it was only for one mega intense moment when i felt like the world was caving in on me. all i really have now is a really terrible hangover.