when one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
-Helen Keller

i love that quote b/c it rings so true in my life. i've been focusing so much on what i lost that i cant even see how much more i have gained. :| sheez, i dont know what's going on with me. i cant concentrate anymore on anything but these ridiculous unanswerable riddles that can never be solved, atleast with my limited knowledge. i mean, what do i know about what constitutes "the good life" ? hell, i know i'm not living it. it irritates me when people come up and tell you that they wish they were you. what kinda idiot comment is that. i mean, i know they dont really mean it, but i guess the whole concept of wishing to be someone else is stupid. i used to do that all the time...wish that i was so-and-so. the thought of avoding all of these struggles which, in comparison to that person's struggle, seemed gigantic, seemed so attractive. but, as one of the two rules of quantum mechanics states, everything is relative. and so...i dont know... i'm beginning to embrace my struggles and view them in a more optimistic light. hopefully then, i will see that though my past happiness has been overshadowed by my current sorrows, this struggle will ultimately open a door that leads to greater happiness.

this whole blog thing is so therapeutic. no more mental constipation, everything flows nice and freely now. haha.