so yeah..i'm back. the first two days were awesome, and then on the end of the second day, i decided to go supppper fast and just go all out. bad idea. i landed wrong, and i heard a click or something. it hurt like a mother, so since i couldnt get up, i told osmeone to tell them to send one of them sled people to come. they never came to rescue me!!!! soo...these two really really cute korean college guys from irvine helped me slide down the whole mountain on my butt. one of them kept on throwing snowballs at me and laughing. man, if it werent for his dashing looks, i would have broken out some of my brown belt karate on him. but i didnt, and i managed to get down. the first aid people told me that i ripped some ligament, but they didnt know what, so they put on this gheettto leg immobilizer on me..it was like foam and spandex or soemthign...anyway, so on the way back to the airport, my mom insisted that i am wheelchaired to the gate, so everyone stared at me while my brother was going wild steering me to the gate...it was embarrassing...so anyway, i went to the knee doctor today, and he said he thinks i tore my ACL!! aaahhhhh....that's what gracie's brother tore! noooo. but he coudlnt check it much because my knee was still too swollen, so i after a week, i have to get a MRI and then he can confirm whatever he thinks was torn, and to what degree. personally, i dont htink it's that bad. i mean...it doesnt even hurt that bad, but haha...i dont have any sense of balance so if i dotn have my crutches, i fall on my ass every few steps. anyway...the worst part of this all is that he said i was done for the season. that really bums me out because snowboarding was the ONLY thing iw as looking forward to all year! it was one of the frikkin reasons i went ED to yale! and ok... i went to the dentist right after, too. and he used that frikkin metal pick...eeesh. and he said i have EIGHT CAVITIES?!??!? WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?! last time i went i had none! this guy is on crack....anyway, i dont even care about that.i dont care that i have to go to physical therapy for god knows how long for my shoulder. dude..my whole body is fucked up. but i dont care. the only thing that really pisses me off is that i'm done for the season. dude i cant believe this! i'm so mad!!!!! AH)!*#U$&: )#%Y&:#Y% :@#%:U@#$U*R)!#(UR ):@#*U!!!

i'm so frustrated right now...::sigh::

so i'm gonna get off that stupid topic b/c talking about it any more is really gonna make me cry.

onto something more positive in my life. so while i was stuck at the hotel the last day of skiing, i went to go watch "catch me if you can" with my family friends. that was one good movie. but anyway, moving on... the main thing i did was pick up a book that i left alone for a few years.

i remember someone told me to read "screwtape letters" by c.s. lewis a few years ago, and so i started it, but at that time, i thought it was such a stupid book that didnt apply to me, so put it on my shelf and left it there until a few days ago. so after watching LOTR II, i really wanted to read the books, so i packed the first of the trilogy in my suitcase, and i remembered that c.s. lewis and tolkien were buddies, and i saw Screwtape Letters on my shelf, so i took that too. and so on that day that i had to stay at the hotel, i started reading the book again. the first thing that was like "whoa" was that cslewis dedicated the book to tolkien! but that was not as cool as what i read. so as i was reading, i found so much of the material to be appicable to my life right now. it was crazy! and for those of you dont know how i read, i mark up the book and put little marks next to passages that i really like. and i was marking up the book like mad. i mean...the whole "devil perspective" was kinda weird at first, but i got past that aspect and was reading what cslewis was trying to convey through the characters. it was awesome. i'm only halfway through, and i hope to GOD it doesnt have a disappointing ending. so far, though...it's a bloody good book. it really really really made me think and reevaluate some things. i mean..i am always doing that these days, but this book...it made me look at things in a different light. good stuff.