my yale interview sucked...whatever.

three things i realized today:

1st: i think that our family is the only korean family in los angeles that uses a dishwasher. (and we use it regularily!) my dad got this kickass dishwasher system for the new house and now my mom uses it all the time. it's so strange...

2nd: i use my dictionary a lot more these days. does this mean that i'm learning more words, or that i'm just forgetting the ones i already know? hmm...strange also..

3rd: i am not ready for college. i dont feel ready. i wish i had another year to figure things out or something. just the thought of being shipped off to X college in less than 12 months is terribly frightening. i dont want to be far from family, from friends, from the life that i know. the fact that i'm gonna have to adapt to a completely new community....ugh..i dont want to do that. i think i'm just in some kinda phase right now. i am in too delicate a stage to be moved right now. i know i dont want to stay HERE...but i dont want to go THERE either....so where do i go? strange...