i just got back from the winter orchestra concert. i played my vivaldi solo so terribly...it was embarrasing...luckily half of the audience was apparently tone deaf. but still...i know that i sucked, and it brings me down. :| i hate thinking about violin now....i mean to think of how good i could have been, and to see me now...i mean i suck ass now and it's so pathetic. i stopped going to colburn, i stopped quartet, i dont even play solo music anymore, esp after i made my violin portfolio for college. i cant invite my violin friends over to hear me ever, cause it would be so bad...::sigh:: aiya...what can i do...

i finally have a day with no homework.thank the lord. i should spend this time wisely and start my stanford essays. it's due in a week! holy smokes... anyway, so i'm off to do that. peace

my brother found this somewhere. hahah...