i have a new strengthened love for my friends. i guess the thought of all of us going our separate ways in just a few months makes these months all the more precious. i mean...man..we know each other so well by now...it's crazy. ah...it makes me sad. :| i mean, esp. since prep friends have been the ones that have stuck through all the shit...i've lost so many close friends to a lot of things...it's just depressing to know that my girls at school are gonna be gone soon, too. prospero's words from shakespeare's "the tempest" come to mind...i mean, maybe this was just all an illusion? yes, it was a fantasy, a paradise that allowed me to escape my own troubles. that's what made it so precious. friendships are like drugs that, when life gets too rough, i could always take and transcend into a world of love and laughter. but soon, that haven will disappear...

"These our actors,
as I foretold you, were all spirits and
are melted into air, into thin air;
and like the baseless fabric of this vision,
the cloud-capped towers, the gorgeous palaces,
the solemn temples, the great globe itself,
yea, all which it inherit, shall dissolve,
and, like this insubstantial pageant faded,
leave not a rack behind. we are such stuff
as dreams are made on, and our little life
is rounded with a sleep."

- shakespeare