today, i discover that i am very religious. which is very odd, since the earlier years of my life are characterized with anti-religious sentiments and general secular thought. and most people know me to be 'level headedm,' a trait that is known to clash with spiritual issues. but something really bizarre occured between that stage of my life and this. what, i dont know, but it's weird to find myself in this position. like when you're in the ocean. and the waves are crashing over your feet, and you're so preoccupied with the ocean ahead of you, that you dont realize that you're slowly drifting away from your original location. the ocean is pulling you away. and then after awhile, when you do look back, you can see how far you've traveled. i had this moment of retrospection today. it hit me pretty hard. the implications of this realization, though, hit me harder.