i feel like someone smashed my head open with a giant nutcracker, yanked out my brains and fed them to a tree shredder. i seem to have lost the ability to link coherent thoughts together and reach any sort of conclusion on anything. damn...what's going on with me.

jen told me this a while ago...i thought i'd post it:

"every time you see a wrong you want to put right, remember that the first revolution-and the most important- has to happen inside you. to fight for an idea when you have no clear idea about yourself is one of the most dangerous things you can do. everytime you feel lost or confused, think of the trees and how they grow. remember that a tree with a great leafy crown and shallow roots will fall in the first gust of wind, and in a tree with abundant roots and a scanty crown the sap cannot flow freely. roots and crown must grow in due proportion; you have to be a part of things and above them; only thus can you offer shade and a shelter, only thus can you put forth flowers and fruit in due season. and when you come to a meeting of many ways and do not know which to choose, do not choose at random, but pause and reflect. breathe with the trusting, deep breaths you took when you first came into the world; let nothing distract you, but wait and go on waiting. be still and listen to silence to your heart. when it has spoken to you, rise up and follow it."